Change is our friend

So I find myself on the cusp of another life change.

When The Princess and O’Baby move out with Koby, The Princess will need to work more often. She will need someone to watch O’Baby. She will not be as available to pick Bubba up from school. And soon enough, Bubba will be out of school for the summer break.

I find myself increasingly dissatisfied with work. It seems 90% of the time, we work understaffed, and it drags on you. We’re busier than ever, but our staff is smaller. I find myself thinking that all the work I have done and have to keep doing to maintain my RNIII status may not be worth it. I feel I have to make a choice: stay where I am and settle for what I have, which is simply convenience and familiarity, or shake things up just a little, diversify.

I called the head of radiology to see if he could use a prn (as needed) nurse in Specials, where radiologists do interventional procedures. He didn’t have any hours for me, but suggested that I fill in for the other RNs when they needed to take off. I know these RNs well, have worked with them before. I have also worked Specials before. This is a no-brainer.

So I thought I’d work prn in the ED and prn in Specials. I would keep to two days a week or less. I would be able to set my own hours, but at the risk of having none available at various times. Right now, there will always be shifts to fill in the ED. And I will have more time to watch O’Baby, which will be my primary occupation.

My conflict lies in the when of it. When do I go prn? The Princess states she will start taking more waitressing hours at the end of March. Is this something I can count on? I have to find out when the next schedule in the ED ends. When do I tell my boss?

I feel rattled and stressed about all this. On top of it all, my friend is having surgery Tuesday. This means we will be down a fulltime day RN for at least eight weeks – if she even comes back at all. I am worried about the outcome of this surgery. And with her gone, our unit will be extra-stressed. The timing is bad, but isn’t it always?

I’m also stressed about my battle with my weight. I am up five pounds from my lowest weight, even though I’ve been running at least 2.5 miles three to four times a week. I feel that once I let carbs back in the house, I lost the battle. So I will go back to the weight-loss place tomorrow after my run, to see if there is anything they can do to help me.

On the brighter side, I ordered my new dining table and matching bench today. The table won’t be delivered until April 9th, but I can go pick up the bench tomorrow. I will order the rest of the chairs in the next week or two. Somebody should really keep me away from p0ttery barn. I want to buy everything in the place!

So the theme for this week is upheaval. I will think about my options over the next few days, so when I go to work on Wednesday, I will have a clear picture of what I want to discuss with my boss. And I will also order flowers for my friend.